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I have been trying to wear this shoe out for the last 2 years so that I may trim my shoe collection. I have had them for 4 years making them my oldest and most used pair. But they only seems to become more beautiful as they age. I am not trying to wear them out by not taking care of them or deliberately trying to destroy them, but by wearing them a lot more than I would have. Every time I condition them, they darken slightly and become a richer brown. The sole is worn in. The insides are dirty. The upper leather has a rich patina. And they look beautiful to my eyes. If they ever develop a crack, I may write it off as “developing character” and will probably even wear them as statement shoes. I think shoes are meant to look worn in. It adds to their beauty. I have a theory that while black shoes look shabby with dislocations and cracks, the brown shoes look more interesting as they gather their wrinkles. There is a comfort in the old and well worn … that old cotton navy dress. Or the patinaed brown boots…. That shirt you don’t want to take off… Listening to the same song over and over again…. The tea you make yourself everyday … The familiar scent on his pillow … This is how you achieve simplicity without associating it with boredom.

These flats do not have a thick sole, lack arch support, have a low vamp, are made of thin leather, look rather casual – all the reasons why I wouldn’t have classified them as high quality. They don’t offer the much needed shock absorption when your dog drags you along the city streets when you walk him. But they are made of good leather and have lasted this long. I clean and condition them once a month. This is quality I can appreciate. And the imperfections have become a thing of admiration. I would like to own less and expect this sort of longevity from everything I own. This was lacking when I had excess “fast” disposable items. Now, it’s different. The more familiar they get with wear and tear, the more beautiful they seem to become.

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I refuse to use the words : ” I ‘still‘ wear these shoes after 4 years”. Like I expect some sort of recognition for using them. Because that is a bad attitude to have. Using the words “still” implies there is a time limit on it all. That things are meant to fall apart quicker. Or that we are meant to get over what we own and move on to the next. I also don’t believe we got to pay hundreds of dollars or buy luxury goods to acquire quality. We need to be educated in recognizing quality. We need to make more good purchases and learn to make them last. We need more time between wanting something and buying something … to give it more thinking time & to curb the impulses … If we buy less and better, this sort of longevity automatically occurs. We will take better care of what we own. You are not constantly selling things away or donating them before their life cycle ends. It took me a few years to get to this place.

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P.S: While they did give me good value for money, I am not recommending these shoes for purchase. Too flat and too thin being the major concerns. And you can find better make in the second hand market for this amount of money. I didn’t know better(anything) about shoes when I made the purchase.